Should I Care?

Have you ever known that a person really doesn't care for you and you have absolutely no idea why and know for certain that they have no basis for any of their feelings simply because you have never had a personal conversation with them? Their opinions can only be measured by something that they have heard from second-hand knowledge. It feels unfair. I am really only writing this hoping that somehow saying it out loud might make me feel better about being in this situation.

I feel like I have spent a good part of my life not making a good first impression, but seem to turn most people around, eventually. I really try to give most people the benefit if the doubt when I first meet them. They may be shy, unsure of them self, full of pain from something I don't know about, and I would hope that a little compassion could go a long way. I am better able to cope with someone who knows the "real" me and still doesn't like me than someone who has a fabricated opinion and decides they don't like me. Not sure I care, other than the fact that I am to reflect the Lord and don't want to be a poor reflection of Him.

These are my deep thoughts for the day and a reminder not to jump to judgements about others before you really know who they are.

Three Hours for Fifteen Minutes

My cute parents, me, and Rich made the three hour trip to see UConn play Pitt on Saturday. We had a fun time before the game at The Strip in Pittsburgh and a had a great lunch at Primanti Brothers. Aside from some parking issues before the game and a heartbreaking loss by a field goal, we enjoyed a beautiful fall day and just being together. It never ceases to amaze me how we don't mind traveling pretty much any distance just for a chance to see Chad for 15 minutes after every game before he has to fly home to school. The actual game is just a bonus. We laugh because right now while Chad is not playing, we really only care about getting there before the games start just to see him warm up.
$15 for PA Turnkpike tolls
$24 lunch at Primanti Brothers
$10 for parking at the stadium
$12 for a stadium drink and hot dog
Seeing your boy for 15 minutes after the game... Priceless.

Wish I did.....

anything but what I do. I know, sounds so ungrateful, but I'm just throwing it out there. I went to see the movie "Julie and Julia" last night and I so could relate to Julie's feelings of being lost in her job. She and Julia Childs found a way to make what they always dreamed of happen. I want to be them. Most times I feel like I have wasted my time doing a job that feels unfulfilling and meaningless in hopes that it is for the best interest of my kids. I'm no martyr, believe me, I whine about it all the time. I feel conflicted a lot of the time wondering what God's take on that is; not the whining part, I know the answer to that! I am extremely grateful just to have a job, don't get me wrong, and I work with some of the most amazing people you could ever meet, it's just not my "calling". I need to go on and find that.
If I can't find that "calling" I would want to be a bear. God has a perfect plan for their life. They get to eat as much as they want in the fall, gain hundreds of pounds, go to sleep and skip the worst time of the year, wake up skinny. Brilliant! I think I'll ask God why that wasn't an option for me when I get to heaven.