It's harder to "be" than to do.

Up to this point in my life, the deepest pain I have felt has been on behalf of my kids. Either from a poor decision they have made, or someone has treated them unfairly, or they are disappointed and hurt about something. What do you say to your kid when he has known for the past two years what school he wanted to go to and what major he wants to study and has done all the right things to make that happen, and he still doesn't get accepted into the only school that has the major he wants? What do you say to a kid who seems like he has to work twice as hard at things as other kids to get things? All the things that I know in my head just sound like the teacher on "Charlie Brown".... "Whaat, Whaat, Whaat" when I say it to him. "God has a plan", "Things happen for a reason", etc.
I was feeling pretty empty last night and almost just went to bed, when I saw my devotional "John" from Beth Moore (love her by the way) sitting beside my bed and opened it to the day's study. It was talking about how the disciples were fishing and caught nothing and Jesus told them to cast their nets on the right side of the boat and they caught so many they couldn't pull them all into the boat. (John 21:1-7). Beth's point was that the disciples went back to fishing because they didn't know what their next steps should be, so they went back to something familiar, and just did what they knew. It really is harder to just "be" than to do. I am so thankful that God cares about little ol' me in the midst of the sadness in Haiti and all this world that he can speak so clearly to me when I need it most through His Word. I am praying that God will refine Garret and help him just "be" right now and show him what to "do" in His time. That is my deepest desire for my cute boy.