I am an introvert. According to the Myers-Briggs personality test that I have taken twice, I am not kind of an introvert, I am a complete introvert, a solid line "I". I am also N,F, and J, but that is for another time. What that means, according to Myers and Briggs, is that I feel refreshed and energized from being alone and focus on the inner world of ideas and impressions. I don't know who Myers and Briggs are but they need to get out of my head. Each letter really nails my personality on the head, it's almost scary. So the final chapter of my true confessions has come early. I have gracefully bowed out of Bible study. I know I was going to stretch myself and all the other lofty things that I said but the introvert in me can't, and I am OK with that. I found myself enjoying the actual study, but not the group part. I was feeling stressed each week and came to the conclusion that that is not how I best learn from the Word and that God speaks to me when I am alone with Him. I kind of picture just me and God sitting at a cafe table in a quaint coffee shop, steaming cup of coffee, and one of those huge bakery muffins with the granulated sugar on top (OK don't judge me it's a "spiritual" muffin and is very low in calories), talking one-on-one about what His Word says. The nice part about getting older is that you really do know yourself better. While there is always room for improvement, I am just designed a certain way, the way God made me, and I can't fight it. I am grateful to the women of my Bible study and how gracious they all have been to me, and count them as a blessing in my life.
2 comments:
wow....your something else...but i had you pegged making it through week 6 then bowing out....you made me loose 5 bucks girl.....lol
From one I to another...I totally get this and love you even more for it.
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