Crossroads

Wanted: All people who will freely give me their opinion, be a buttinsky, share experiences, and generally shove me in the right direction. Here is how it is. I have a job that I truly am grateful for but feel like it is very unmeaningful to ME. It might work for someone else. I don't get alot of satisfaction on any level day-to-day. It is a job, not a career. I have always viewed it as a way to help our kids with tuition for college and a way to do my part to contribute to our family finances (as minute as that may be). It's been 12 years, 12 years, people! That's a long time to do anything. So this brings me to my crossroad. Is it irresponsible to quit a job when so many people are struggling to find one just because I don't feel satisfied? Is it selfish? I dream of working part-time. I dream of doing something that makes a difference. I also think that I have passed the time when I can go back to school to start a new career. I feel like my brain cells are depleted to the point that I would fail miserably. That's what is swirling around in my head. Anyone out there who can share a story, thought or just say a prayer that I will have some real clarity on this, I would be most appreciative.

Now on another subject and I bring this up here because it will be buried within this post and maybe no one will notice but I have made a committment to getting up BEFORE work to exercise. Well, I just started today so we will see how this goes. I am disgusted in myself all evening because I keep thinking of how lazy I am that I can't take a half-hour to exercise rather than stuff the piece of chocolate in my mouth. I also hate to sweat and be out of breath so I figure I will exercise in the morning when I am not even awake enough to know that I am sweating. This is BIG for me (much like my butt is getting) because I hate morning. I loath it. By the way, getting up a half-hour earlier does not in any way assure me that Rich will not talk to me in the morning. He tried to have a full-blown conversation with me this morning at 5:45 a.m. When will he learn?!